The True Gift

In all things there is change. Some for the good, some not. We humans change so many times during our lives. I only now realize how my grandparents…my parents, felt as they were getting older. It’s a definite change.

We start our lives in a full tub of “life”. We are in the very back corner of that full tub….that tub which is a different level for each of us. As soon as we are born, the plug is pulled and our life starts to drain. The closer we get to the “drain” the faster our life moves. The journey will…change…you.

I saw some of the ways it changed my loved ones as they raced towards the spiral at the end. I’m determined I will not change in some of those ways….and yet, much of what happens is out of my control.

So I suppose I will control what I can, and live with what I cannot control. What more can we do?

What more can we ask except for the chance to try and fulfill our best in life? It’s a true gift to be given the chance to even try. It’s a true gift to not be alone….to have people to love, and who love you back.

Our dual life

Inside each of us there are two people. There is the “public” us, the person we show to everyone else around….we show the things we want people to see, the things we think people want to see, the things we think will get us ahead, the things that will make us accepted. Most of our outside life is reflective of this image.

Then there is the “private” us, the being who keeps things secret, the person who most accurately reflects what we really are, the us we share with practically nobody. The things which perhaps others around us could never accept, or would accept with only malice.or misunderstanding. The life we think about when we lay awake in bed at night.

We all are two, no matter what we may think. I believe the more of the private “us” we can show, the more spiritually and mentally healthy we will be. It’s hard though, and I believe it can never be totally and completely done.

There’s always that part of us of which we will never let go.