Even the Bad Times are Good

To the people who I have loved and who are now gone: I try and remember you as much as possible! I try and think of you each and every day! It’s not maudlin to remember your loved ones and the happy memories you had with them. I think it’s theraputic. It keeps them alive in your memory. They exist there as they once existed physically here on Earth. I try not to think in a mournful way, but in honor.

And, as one song I have heard so succinctly puts it, “Even the bad times are good” We learn from the bad times how better to enjoy the good. We learn from the bad times that we are all human. There are no perfect people. Not now.

As I grow older, I am trying to leave better memories than I did when I was a younger man. I was so self absorbed, and trying always to “get ahead” and “make ends meet” How little I knew about life. How off the mark I was about what constitues happiness. I’m not sure if it’s the dwindling years, or the gathering of more tender memories with those around me. It really doesn’t matter now. What matters is that most days I remember to try and leave a memory with somebody.

I always thought this tiny house in which we live to be a sign of not succeeding.

Now when I think back, I remember the times when everyone was packed in together. We were close. We grew closer. Three kids and their friends. Games played and meals eaten. Shows watched together in silence or in noisy celebration. Report cards reviewed, and papers written and assissted with. Research which benefited me as much as it did the primary party. Situations discussed and problems resolved…..or not. Life lived!

So, I guess it is not so bad. Not really a “sign of success or failure” My grandchildren run and crawly the halls and draw on the walls now. I don’t care. If you looked around now, you’d see crayon pictures hanging and momentos magnetized to the refrigerator. You’d see kids books partially filling the bookshelfs and plastic crates full to the top with stuffed bears and letter blocks. My wife sits not eight feet away from me. I’m glad she’s that close.

So, in twenty or thirty years, or whenever, I hope I’ll have made enough memories in the heads of some of my favorite people that they might even think back and remember when I wrote a little page about it.

The Boys in our Band

The Boy’s in OUR Band….a fictional account, based on a real incident. The names have been changed to protect the innocent….and the guilty.

It’s the 1966-1967 school year, and I’m a High School junior. My best friend Bebo Sears and I were headed back to his house out in the country, about eight miles North of Welcome Hill. Along the way, there was a popular little eating joint known as the “Riverside Barbeque.” It was appropriately named, as the murky, slow flowing Chattooga was right across the road. The Riverside, was affectionately known as Dub’s. They probably had the best Barbeque I can ever remember putting in my mouth. They also bootlegged beer, since our county was dry back then. They didn’t care what age you were, since they were already breaking one law, what did it matter to them if you were only sixteen or seventeen years old. Maybe it’s what made the Barbeque taste so good.

Bebo and I were in hog heaven, as his sister had let him borrow her car. We decided we were hungry so we stopped by Dub’s for a sandwich and a beer. We got our goodies, and Bebo kicked it into high gear up the little hilly, curvy road toward his house. We rounded one steep corner with him doing about 60 miles an hour, and there was a car coming the other way over on our side of the road. Bebo did a one-handed-emergency-avoidance-maneuver (he had a beer in the other hand) which took his sister’s new Buick up the side of a twelve foot dirt bank. The car did a 360 degree turn, and came back down onto the pavement headed in exactly the right direction. Besides kicking up a little dust, you would have never known anything had happened. There wasn’t a scratch anywhere on the car, or on us.

“Sheeiiit,” Bebo stated calmly.

I never said a word, I just took another bite out of my sandwich, and continued to chew, out of reflex…

“What do think about THAT little bit of driving?” Said Bebo in a bragging tone.

I never said a word, I just took a huge swallow of Black Label, and sat perfectly still, like a rabbit that’s just seen the barrel of a twelve gauge shotgun poke through the weeds.

About ten minutes passed before my vocal cords became “unparalyzed” from the sheer fright they had just been given. In that time I had mentally asked God to forgive me for all the things I should have asked him to forgive me for during the three second period of time we were up on that dirt bank.

“We’ve got to find something else to occupy our time, before we get killed,” I managed to wheeze out.

“Let’s start a band.” I suggested

Two weeks later I talked my Dad into letting me trade my scroll side Kay dreadnaught acoustical guitar in on a cheapie Bass guitar. This was one of the biggest mistakes of my musical life, as I have wished a million times I had that guitar back. But…I did what I did.

Bebo bought an electric six string, and we recruited Bill West, and Peewee Jones as keyboard player and drummer. Thus began “AT’S US.” In my mind this was being done mainly in the interest of self-preservation on my part, in order to keep Bebo out from behind the wheel of a car as much as possible, and to keep me from becoming an automobile fatality due to his wild-ass driving. Our first rehearsal was not a pretty sight nor sound.

Bebo and his family had just moved down to Frogtown, as the farm they had been living on when he and I just about died in an auto accident, had been too far away from the mill (where his Mom worked) and the school. This suited Bebo and me, as it was just a two-minute walk, or a thirty-second drive from my house to his. Not enough mileage to work up any significant speed.

We gathered our equipment and went into the bedroom to begin rehearsal.

I had been playing the guitar for several years, and although I never was a virtuoso or anything, I was adequate. I could pick out the chords to popular songs pretty easily, and knew quite a few songs on which I wanted us to work. The problem was I had never played a bass guitar before, Bebo had only been playing for a couple of months, Peewee had just bought a drum set the week before, and Bill had only acquired his keyboard the night before our first practice.

“Let’s try Twist and Shout,” I suggested.

Nobody did anything.

“How do we start?” Asked Peewee

“Let’s go on four,” I speculated. “One, two, three, and four….”

Bebo had his amp volume on par with his car speed… turned up to the maximum, and when he hit his version of the opening of “Twist and Shout,” the brick dust started coming out of the cracks in the ceiling where the chimney was connected. His Daddy’s two beagle dogs started howling at the top of their lungs. I felt like a B-52 bomber had just landed on my head, and shattered my eardrums.

“You might want to turn the volume down a little,” I screamed

About an hour later, after the police had left from investigating the disturbing the peace complaint from Bebo’s neighbors, we resumed our rehearsal with the volume cranked down to a one on all of our amps, and with Pewee’s drums padded. With about three hours practice a night for the next two months we gradually developed a repertoire that included enough songs to start our playing career.

Bebo’s cousin owned a skating rink at a place called, “Pigeon Mt. Lake,” and after a phone call or two, we were booked to play a weekend engagement there. I was as nervous as a porcupine in a room full of balloons when we arrived. Bebo, Bill and Peewee had drunk most of a six pack of beer each, and were not feeling any pain.

Unfortunately, or fortunaely depending on your point of view, I was not a good drinker. I had the tendency to get really bad vertigo after about three beers, and was prone to spend the balance of the night sitting on somebody’s bathroom floor, clutching a toilet to keep the room from spinning, and up-chucking occasionally. I was therefore appointed lead singer, and designated driver.

Things went O.K. for the first three or four songs. The crowd was really getting into the music, dancing and having a good time. We noticed that a small group of nice looking girls was getting closer and closer to the stage. They were all dancing by themselves and making eyes at the boys in the band.

I had just launched into our version of the Beatle’s song, “I’m Down,” when I noticed we no longer had a rhythm guitarist. Next we lost the keyboard sound. I thought something had happened to our power supply. When the drums stopped playing, I looked out into the glare of the spotlight and saw Bebo, Bill, and Peewee wildly dancing with the girls. Luckily, we had picked up a lead guitar player named Jimbo Black, who was more interested in making music than being on the make, who continued to back me up as I sang.

“Play a slow song next, Birdbrain,” (my nickname) yelled Bebo from the crowd, seemingly unaware of the fact that he had switched from band to fan.

“Get your ass back up here you dummy,” I countered “or you guys get to walk back to Trion.”

They relented, and we finished our set without further incident. After that, we played at mostly local affairs around town, and the guys always made a point to wait until after we had finished before plying their romantic skills on the unsuspecting female population.

We covered (played familiar tunes which had already been recorded and made popular by other bands) all sixty’s tunes, and as Rock bands of that time go, we weren’t half bad. A lot of the bigger towns had numerous, and I mean NUMEROUS, Rock bands back then. It was just the in thing to do, since music was such a big part of everyone’s life in the sixties. Groups were the rage because of the tremendous popularity of the Beatles, Stones, Animals, etc.

In our small town, our band was one of only about three going at that time, and we were the best of the three. We thought we had the gig for the senior prom sewn up.

We were already planning what type of equipment we were going to spend the money on. It turns out we had counted our chickens before they hatched. Or maybe we had counted too much on the girls that were on the committee to select the band to play at the prom. Some of them apparently still held grudges against us for various reasons, not the least of which was the smug attitude of a couple of our band members, and the fact that one of them had just broken up with one of the committee’s best friends.

Enter a band from just across the mountain from us known as “Wildfire.”

Wildfire was not any better musically than we were at that time, and they were a cover band just like we were. Add that to the fact that they were from out of town, and we were just a little upset at the fact they had gotten our gig.

We were mollified by the explanation from the committee that since a couple of our members WERE Seniors, they didn’t think it would be right that we would not get to enjoy the dance, if we were providing the music. We accepted their patronage. Wildfire came to play at the old gym in the upper floor of the “Y,” and it turns out that they had really been practicing. They were a lot better than when we had previously heard them, and our band ended up really enjoying the prom, since we got to dance, and appreciate the music, instead of working.

Years later, this little group from Ft. Payne, Alabama went to Myrtle Beach, South Carolina, and started playing there. They had stuck together, and stuck with their dream of making a living making music. It was many years after our band had played our final note, and I had broken my last guitar string. We had been long forgotten by everyone other than a couple of really fanatic fans, or good friends.

In the meantime, “Wildfire” had been practicing their act, and getting better and better. Finally, after an incredible amount of hard work, they landed a recording contract with a major label, and cut their first major album. They also changed their name to reflect their pride in being from a great Southern state. ALABAMA, was born.

I didn’t even know for a long time. It was at one of our class reunions, and someone was playing, “Feels So Right,” for everyone to slow dance to, when

“Corky” Vineyard said: “Did you know that this is the band that played at our Senior Prom?”

I had never made the connection, and it floored me to find out. What might have been if me and the other guys in “At’s Us,” had been a little more dedicated to our dream? What might have been…….? As Robert Frost might say, I guess that’s one of those “roads not taken.”

Anyway, can you Country music fans picture Randy Owens with long hair, singing “Mustang Sally?” Well, as I recall, he sounded pretty good.

Survival of the Fittest

Our closest relatives are quite telling. I mean, they are not telling us as in writing us a book or anything. They are not speaking English to us. Maybe a little sign language now and then. Rudimentary stuff. Yes, No…Gimme’ banana. Stuff like that.

99.6% of our genome is shared with Chimpanzees, and now scientists have found, also with Bonobos, (pygmy chimps) although we share a different 1.6% of our genetics with Chimps than we do with Bonobos.

Monkeys and Greater Apes, like the Chimpanzees, are generally not pleasant creatures. Chimps especially will become very vicious creatures as adults. Just think back a few years when the poor lady in New York City got her face ripped off by one of her friends “pet” chimpanzees. Vicious.

My Father in law was a Veterinarian. Dr. L.J. Neurauter. He was an administrator, and after he retired from the Air Force, he ran the BIG primate center out in Davis, California. But he didn’t like monkeys. He certainly didn’t like the Chimpanzees. One time we visited them in Davis, and took a tour of the primate center. “Don’t get too near the Chimpanzee compound,” said Dr. Neurauter. “They’ll throw feces at you, and they are really accurate.” I took him at his word. He went on to tell us how none of the handlers would ever…ever…get in the chimpanzee compound with them out, unless they had a death wish. Vicious with each other, and vicious with human beings. Almost like a hatred of human beings.

Our closest relative, as far as genetics go. I know a lot of people are gonna’ say: “We didn’t evolve from monkeys!”

So true.

We had a common ancestor with the chimpanzees and bonobos about 4 million years ago, and the ancestor who eventually evolved into human beings split off from that common ancestor. I imagine they were pretty vicious animals. Out of the three most closely related Primates, the Bonobos, who are the smallest, are the least vicious. Humans and Chimpanzees….not so much.

Survival of the fittest…and the meanest.

As Anthropology major in college, I took a lot of classes in Physical Anthropology. Dr. Butler. A hard man to please if you didn’t study like you outta’. He once told me that early man was probably a vicious animal, but also a social animal. Conditions of living dictated that families stay together for protection from larger predators. Sabre tooth tigers, Cave bears. You know…all that Jean W. Auel stuff. Eventually families started hanging around together for even more protection. They became tribes. Tribes grouped together and became ethnic groups. Discovered agriculture. Started building small villages, towns, cities. Still maintained the viciousness. The aggression and the primal instincts of those first ancestors.

Survival of the meanest?

For how long?

The creator alone knows, and he ain’t telling.

Something Greater than Ourselves

Last night I laid there and wondered if the pieces of the puzzle which are coming together are getting closer and closer to being complete and do people realize it?

What IS the point of unsustainability or the point of no return…or maybe there is no return but just a relentless march forward., like a snowball rolling downhill.

The world is a wonderful place and there are so many wonderful people in it. I love many, many of them…of you!

It was such a beautiful day yesterday. It’s hard to believe that some of the things that are going on are even happening. It seems surreal and distant, as if it’s being broadcast to Earth from another planet.

But, apparently being a passenger on spaceship Earth is a dangerous thing.

Some will say have faith, that your faith will sustain you. Some will say there is no faith to have, only living life.

I want to say there is something else, something greater that is here, but just out of reach and that we will all touch it before all of the puzzle is completed.

But we have a ways to go as a species, as compassionate creatures, and as spiritual beings.

A Squirrel for my Very Own

Saw a squirrel out back tonight fooling around with my bird feeder and I began to think back:

The year was 1960 and I was nearing my tenth birthday.

I was watching my Grandpa as he chopped down an old rotten Elm tree which was near the edge of his drive. The first frost had already fallen and it was a late September day, if my memory serves me right. I was standing up on the front porch and watched as the big old tree fell from a precisely placed last strike of the ax from Grandpa. There were no chain saws around back then, just the two person cross cut saw which my Dad had helped Grandpa with, and his sharp ax. That tree was going to become fodder for the old iron wood burning stove with the two eyes on top. That huge old glutton of wooden food could take five or six big logs and then turn orange red on the outside as it burned blazing hot in my Grandparent’s living room. You dare not touch it when it was freshly stoked or you would suffer a nasty burn. All of us grandchildren learned from an early age “not to touch the stove”

The tree came down and I noticed my Dad peering curiously into one of the sections of the tree and then reaching in and picking something up. He looked up at the porch and hollered for me to come down there. I came running and was amazed to see Dad holding a little squirming furry bundle. It was a baby squirrel. He gave it to me and told me to hold onto the squirmy little rodent. It appeared to be about half grown, and was ambulatory and quite unhappy to have literally “fallen” into its current situation. Grandma happened to have a tall cardboard box at the house, so I ran up and put the little fur ball into it. It was too tiny to jump out the top, and so there it stayed in its first home away from its family. We were at my Grandparent’s house for a few more days and I played with that squirrel for hours every day. Much to my Grandpa and Dad’s surprise, the squirrel started to “tame up” and actually began to eat a variety of foods, including left over cornbread. Its little tummy would poke out after every meal.

On the way home in the car, I let the little rascal climb around inside my shirt. He didn’t offer to bite me, but those sharp little claws did more than just tickle on a couple of occasions.

Once we got him home, Dad acquired a metal cage from somebody. It was like a small chicken coop and the only way to keep the squirrel in securely was with a stretch spring which Daddy had gotten from the mill. That spring had to be pulled tight and latched on one of the crossbars of the cage every time we got the little rascal in and out of the cage.

As he matured, our little pet gray squirrel became a true track star. He would run all over the house, up and down the furniture and jumping onto the light fixtures much to my Mom’s consternation. He was pretty tame with me, but he began to bite anyone else who tried to feed him. I got really attached to the little critter but it became apparent to me, even at ten years old, that he wasn’t really a happy camper. Wild animals like this just are not meant to be kept in a cage.

The end of his tenure at our house came abruptly. I was trying to hook the sharp ended spring into its place on the cage one day, and it slipped and raked across the meaty part of my hand causing a nasty cut. I hollered and bled for a while and Mom decided, against my protests that my furry friend had to go.

My Dad gave the squirrel and the cage to one of my cousins. A couple of months later Dad told me that the little feller had choked on a piece of orange (yep…it like fruit) and had died. I was heartbroken for a few days, but as children will do, I soon forgot my pet squirrel and started thinking about baseball cards, or comic books, or some other childish thing.

Since then,I have always liked squirrels, even though I know most folks consider them pesky little creatures who like to gobble up bird food, and generally cause problems by climbing around in attics and such as that.

I don’t begrudge them their little bit of seed though because I know those little dudes are voracious eaters, and it’s sometimes hard for them to find enough to satisfy their hunger.

I look out the window at them jumping around like acrobats and I can sometimes still feel a little tickle inside my shirt…. It was a short but worthwhile relationship between a nerdy kid and a furry rodent.

2017

The New Year is creeping every closer. Just a few more days until Sunday and it will be 2017.

When I was a kid in the 1950’s, I often thought about the year 2000 and beyond. I thought it would be a magical time where most problems of health and poverty would be solved and I thought that surely by then the world would find a way to be at peace. I thought people would travel around in “sky cars” sort of like the Jetsons and that there would be devices to take care of human needs.

I thought human beings would be living together like the people in the Coke commercials. Singing together in “perfect harmony”. I think maybe if we, the human race, had spent as much money and effort on the problems of health and poverty, and on finding ways of helping our fellow man instead of on wars, weapons of wars and ways to destroy each other we might have seen that idealistic world I dreamed off as a child. Instead, the rich have become richer and the poor have gotten poorer, and our divisions have deepened.

Where did we go wrong? Surely I thought, after two huge wars that killed so many people in the middle of the century we would LEARN something……I want to go back sometimes to those days in the past and see if it was something I did, or didn’t do, that might have helped. Surely I could have done more. Certainly we could have all done more. Instead we have become slaves to technology, instead of beneficiaries of it.

People use it to spread hatred and discord. People spend hours and days lost in cyber space instead of talking face to face with each other. Instead of moving forward for the good of all mankind, and in the spirit of love, it appears we have gone backwards. In this past year especially, hatred has become more widespread. The population of our country seems always to be split right down the middle on important social and cultural issues. The holiday season this year has given us a tiny break in which to catch our breath, before we apparently embark on a new national journey….a tact we have never before taken. We are sailing in uncharted waters. Bad or good? Depends on which half of the population you belong to.

I have to have hope that we will learn from what lies ahead. I have to have faith that somehow humanity will turn over a new leaf, and that my children and grandchildren will have a world in which to live. Yes…the new year is creeping every closer this week. There is still a chance for all of those good things that I have pondered on in the past to happen. I wonder if there’s a chance they will? I wonder if we can solve the the number one problem in this world? The problem of people hating other people just because they are different from them. Just because they look different. Just because they think differently.

I used to fantasize as a child about aliens coming to visit Earth, and bringing us the secrets to peace and prosperity. Now I realize that in order for any culture or beings to reach out into the Universe to spread harmony and knowledge, they must first learn how to have it themselves. If they are anything like us, it doesn’t appear that’s a possibility! We earthlings can barely cooperate long enough to decide what’s for dinner…much less think about reaching out to the stars.

When the ball drops, and it becomes 2017, think about what you can do to make this a better world. Let’s try a little selflessness instead of selfishness. Is it too late, or not??

The Voice in my Head

The Voice

There is that voice which is there all time in my head. He has been there ever since I can remember. He was the one who told me back in the fall of 1953 when I was almost 4 years old to ride my tricycle down the front steps on my house. A busted forehead and several stitches later the voice told me we would never, ever do that again.

He sings constantly to me, in any style. I can have a country song by Johnny Cash followed by Imagine Dragons singing “Demons” At times he scares me with my person demons, but at other times he soothes me with sweet poetry. He will be with me until my last breath.

I have read a lot about this… “Inner voice” our internal narrator, our personal monologue which I think….at least from conversations which I have had with others… I think we all have going on constantly in our head. I know all about my guy. I know what to expect from him most of the time. He comes up with some weird things, some good things, and some thoughts which are verbalized which I would never consciously say to another human being. He says some very rude and vulgar things. He also comes up with some tender and moving soliloquies. I hear him just as if he were another person speaking to me. It is never like an invisible or hidden voice, but always speaking directly to me just as another person would. I don’t know how other people hear their inner selves, I really do not know if everyone even has an internal voice.

I’ve heard some people say that our internal voice comes from the way our parents and those around us speak to us as babies and early toddlers. I’m not so sure I accept that theory. I just cannot hear my parents or any other relatives I knew as a baby or child in my monologue. I also can’t accept that people like John Wayne Gacy , or Jeffrey Dahmer had normal inner voices which came from their early associations. I would have really, truly have hated to be inside their head, listening to what was being said. I think their voice must have been riddled with hallucinations, or nightmares.

On the opposite end of the spectrum I would have loved to have heard some of what Leonardo da Vinci, or Albert Einstein had to say to themselves…maybe. I can imagine their inner voices having a sort of discourse, bouncing ideas off of their own walls in order to make discoveries of new things. I would probably been very confused. One cannot imagine what might be going on in the mind of the genius.

Jiminy Cricket would have called our inner voice our “consequence” In Zen, they would think of it as “Nen nen ju shin ki” which means something like “Thought following thought.”

I personally think of it as my heart. The center of my being.

I have read all the mundane explanations, about how the “soul” is nothing but a bunch of character individualization’s based on time, location and socioeconomic factors combined with each person unique experiences, which comprise our personality. I just don’t agree. There is enough of the mystic within me to continue to believe in things which cannot be seen or heard.

Whenever my inner voice speaks to me of any deep emotions it always comes from the heart. I have never had a headache from something bad happening, but always have the feeling come welling up from the center of my chest. My tears start in my heart.

When my voice tells me to be happy, I have never had my head spin. My joy starts in my heart, and radiates out into the rest of my body.

My inner voice comes from my heart and tells me the things no one else would or could tell me. I’d sure hate to lose him because he’s my oldest and closest companion.

Again

I sometimes see the question “If you had the chance to live your life over again, would you do it?”

Of course none of us ever will….

And when I see this question, people usually qualify the answer: “Well, if I knew what I know now…” or “If I could make just a couple of changes…”

I tell you straight to the point, that I would. I’d do it again just exactly the same without changes anything one iota. I’d take the pain and heartache of burying a child, just to see her again through the nursery window.

I’d go through the agony of my parents death, just to hear their voices again. I’d let Mom hit me on the head with my bow again. I’d endure watching Porter Wagoner.

I’d wait til I was 16 again to see the Ocean for the first time. I’d rinse poop out of cloth diapers to have the chance for my baby girl to take a nap on my tummy.

I’d buy hot wheels for my boys to crush with rocks and bury under the Elm tree I planted on 9th street. I’d pick cherrys straight off the tree in the blazing Idaho summer sun for my Mother in law to can.

I’d chase lighting bugs all evening until I had a jar full, and take my turn at cranking the old ice cream machine.

I’d smell Grandpa’s pipe tobacco, and the wood smoke from the pot bellied stove. I’d listen to him cuss when I’d turn over his “spit can” I’d relish the taste of Grandma’s fried apples and homemade lard biscuits.

I’d take the two heart attacks a stent, and four bypasses and a year of recovery to see baby Eli and Rue come in the door the first time again.

I’d play countless games of hearts at the student center at West Georgia college to fall in love with my wife. I’d run off the road in a rain storm on our wedding night and double back to Dalton to a tiny little hotel room.

I would load tractor trailer loads of matresses by myself in 100+ degree weather, so I could have Saturday off to go to the baseball card show.

I would do all the stupid things again, just to do a few of the smart things. I’d take the ass chewings, and countless hours of driving out and back to work in Calhoun and Dalton just to have the hugs and the kisses from the ones I have loved, and do still love.

We will never have that chance…perhaps…depending on your philosophy, or depending on how the Universe works. Who knows really how it does work? All I can say is that the joy has vastly outshined the sadness.

Yes, I’d do it again. Unqualified and unquestioned if I could.

Old Houses and Homes

To the people who I have loved and who are now gone: I try and remember you as much as possible! I try and think of you each and every day! It’s not maudlin to remember your loved ones and the happy memories you had with them. I think it’s theraputic. It keeps them alive in your memory. They exist there as they once existed physically here on Earth. I try not to think in a mournful way, but in honor.

And, as one song I have heard so succinctly puts it, “Even the bad times are good” We learn from the bad times how better to enjoy the good. We learn from the bad times that we are all human. There are no perfect people. Not now.

As I grow older, I am trying to leave better memories than I did when I was a younger man. I was so self absorbed, and trying always to “get ahead” and “make ends meet” How little I knew about life. How off the mark I was about what constitues happiness. I’m not sure if it’s the dwindling years, or the gathering of more tender memories with those around me. It really doesn’t matter now. What matters is that most days I remember to try and leave a memory with somebody.

I always thought this tiny house in which we live to be a sign of not succeeding.

Now when I think back, I remember the times when everyone was packed in together. We were close. We grew closer. Three kids and their friends. Games played and meals eaten. Shows watched together in silence or in noisy celebration. Report cards reviewed, and papers written and assissted with. Research which benefited me as much as it did the primary party. Situations discussed and problems resolved…..or not. Life lived!

So, I guess it is not so bad. Not really a “sign of success or failure” My grandchildren run and crawly the halls and draw on the walls now. I don’t care. If you looked around now, you’d see crayon pictures hanging and momentos magnetized to the refrigerator. You’d see kids books partially filling the bookshelfs and plastic crates full to the top with stuffed bears and letter blocks. My wife sits not eight feet away from me. I’m glad she’s that close.

So, in twenty or thirty years, or whenever, I hope I’ll have made enough memories in the heads of some of my favorite people that they might even think back and remember when I wrote a little page about it.

A Sermon from Matthew

A false prophet can be recognized by the fact that he or she yields bad fruit — distrust, discord, confusion, wrangling, gossip, useless disputes, and divisions within the church, Jesus was very concerned about false prophets:

Mt 7:15 Jesus said to his disciples: “Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing,but underneath are ravenous wolves.

Matthew 24: 4 Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you. 5 For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Christ, and will deceive many. 10 At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, 11 and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people.

How do we tell who is a false prophet? Jesus tells us to look at the fruit:

Matthew 7: 16-20 By their fruits you will know them. Do people pick grapes from thorn bushes, or figs from thistles? Just so, every good tree bears good fruit, and a rotten tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a rotten tree bear good fruit. Every tree that does not bear good fruit will be cut down and thrown into the fire. So by their fruits you will know them.”